Where’s Jeff?
October 9, 2008 by Jeffrey Kishner
I haven’t written anything on this blog (other than blog news) for three weeks, so I wanted to let all my readers know what’s up. (My last two posts were on cheating.)
I’ve been sick since September 18, stricken with a “malaise” that just a few days ago turned into a major cold. I haven’t had the juice to either write original astrology content or talk to clients.
Fortunately, I have a great stable of writers (Laura, Michelle) and guest bloggers who have provided lots of top-quality posts and horoscopes.
Saturn Suckiness
I was talking with an old friend last night — the guy who got me into astrology in the first place — and he mentioned that I have transiting Saturn opposite my Sun, which is a class transit for “weakened vitality.” For some reason, I’ve been so focused on this Saturn-Uranus opposition approaching my Venus that I didn’t pay attention to what’s going on right now!
I’ve also been doing another classic Saturn-Sun activity, which is working really hard to build a business. In addition to my behind-the-scenes editing and web publishing, I’ve been planning a major astrology website that will include all of the Seduction Central content you know and love, plus more. It’s been consuming much of my time and energy.
My Pisces Sun is at 14 degrees 55 minutes, and looking at my ephemeris, I just noticed that Saturn — which just passed over my Sun circa September 28 — will come back to station direct within one minute from my Sun in mid-May 2009.
So, I’m concerned for my well-being.
Whenever I speak with clients about Saturn transits, my usual spiel is along these lines:
Saturn forces you to take seriously the matter of your life symbolized by the planet it is transiting, as well as the house this planet inhabits. What baggage, what old habits, have you been carrying that weigh you down, that prevent you from truly manifesting what you need to in this lifetime? Take an inventory of this luggage and find ways to let it go.
I have a very public Seventh House Sun, and I take it that my “identity” as a blogger needs to shift. Back when transiting Uranus was conjunct my Pisces Sun, I was fortunate to have both lots of increased web traffic plus some novel ideas to build Seduction Central. (Uranus rules both astrology and the internet). Now that Uranus has passed, Saturn is visiting my Sun, and asking, “So, what are you going do about it now? How are you going to consolidate all of these insights and make them last over the long haul?”
Simply put, I realized that Seduction Central, in its current manifestation, has to die. No, all the posts and comments and community will continue to live on at a different website — you don’t have to worry about that — but I’ve made some mistakes along the way that I need to address if this thing is to grow and actually become my livelihood.
- Seduction Central is not a very appropriate name. I know some of you have come to like it, but here’s what concerns me: when I tell total strangers the name of my blog, they think it’s about picking up girls. Which it’s not.
- Casual visitors to the blog will not remember how to get back here — unless they bookmark it or subscribe — because the web address is jeffreykishner.com/astrology/love.
- I’m not sure I want to this venture to be jeffreykishner.com. Seduction Central has expanded to the point where more posts are written by others than myself. I have been spending more time as a web publisher and editor than blogger, and in some respects, I like the role. (My two “work planets” Mars and Saturn are conjunct in my Ninth House of Publishing. Plus I have Virgo Rising.) I’m not going to stop writing, but I think it’s silly to expand this blog on a web address named after myself, when it’s not about me anymore. (Not that it was ever about me, but for the first year I was churning out five blog posts per week.)
- Simply put, my identity (Sun) is shifting. I’m not a Susan Miller or a Jonathan Cainer or a Michael Lutin. I’m a guy who wants to build a really awesome astrology website, I don’t want or need to be the star of the show.
So given that this Saturn transit is going to last about nine more months, I’m sure you’ll be seeing lots of changes from the “web Jeff.” I’m fairly confident that the new website will be better than the current one, and that you’ll want to make it a daily destination.
But I have to also take care of me. I’ve been building this blog while working full time for others as a web producer, not to mention doing phone consultations, dancing and spending time with my wife and daughter. It’s a lot. Something has to give, and I’m not sure what. It’s not the blog, it’s not my family, and it can’t be the day job until I can make a living as an astrologer/publisher.
Sometimes “what has to give” is not outward, though. It’s patterns of behavior, it’s attitudes, it’s how I treat myself. And these types of changes are much harder to implement than the outward stuff.
I don’t have the answer yet, but it’s imperative that I toil this out over the next nine months. If you have any words of advice, please share your Saturn transit to Sun experiences below.
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Oh man, my Saturn/natal Sun opposition’s coming up, too (I’m a late Pisces, 25 degrees) and amusingly enough, I’ll get the Saturn/Uranus opposition right on top of my Sun.
Saturn suckiness indeed….
Argh. I have a wide natal Sun-Saturn opposition, Sun in Scorpio at the IC. I’ve always been prone to fatigue and chronic pain, though I’ve tended to ignore it and just work like hell right through it.
Just after my Saturn return, when transiting Saturn directly opposed my natal Sun, I quit my long commute and 9-to-5 job and went to work for myself. That enabled me to do more work on my inner life and physical health, both of which had been sorely neglected. It was the start of a new cycle of self-care that’s given me more vitality — though if I miss a single day, the fatigue comes barreling back. It really is a practice.
I was wondering why you haven’t been writing much lately.
Saturn transits can be brutal. I feel for you. When I had Saturn opposite my Sun few years back, it was the worst phase of my life, but it was a double whammy because I’ve Sun-Moon opposition in my chart, so Saturn was sitting on my Moon opposing the Sun….:-(
It was far worse than the actual Saturn return, but it was also the biggest learning curve of my life. I wouldn’t be the person I’m today, if it wasn’t for that transit. So I hope, in fact, I *know* you will come out of all this wiser and a better person. So hang in there.
You’ve well wishers and friends who’ll be thinking bout you….:-)
Kathy, I do look forward to the day in which I no longer have to commute or wear business shoes, but I’m not there yet. It indeed sounds like a daily practice for you, but I suppose it forces you to take care of yourself.
Thanks, Gauri
Wishing you much good health as you move through this transit, and as it moves through you.
With care,
a reader with 16 degrees Pisces sun
I have Sun in Virgo square Saturn in my natal chart and managing my energy is a full-time job. Having a healthy lifestyle is a necessity. (A bummer to my Leo Moon conjunct Uranus that wants to have fun fun fun!) Maybe Saturn will help you find more discipline and focus, ‘cuz it’s good for that. Also, Saturn transiting your 1st house should offer lots of grounding in who you are, although it can feel like running with weights on your ankles.
Saturn just left my 1st house, but is now coming up to conjunct my Sun at 18 Virgo (and square Saturn at 19 Saq in my 5th), so those ankle weights seem to still be firmly attached
But I’m watching this Saturn-Uranus opposition because the eye of the storm will make a direct hit. Uranus stationed at 18 Pisces in June 07 and is about to do it all over again at 18 Pisces this November. Sheesh. This time with Saturn in the mix, directly on my Sun at 18 Virgo opposite Uranus at 18 Pisces on election day.
Anyway, take care of yourself, do all good Virgo Ascendant things – healthy food, plenty of sleep. And good luck in implementing your business changes – seems like both Saturn and Uranus working together should be ideal for that.
Yay! The outward appearance of seduction central has to die, but its essence will not! I am excited for this transformation.
I’m seeing a therapist, and it’s helping me a lot. I used to see conflict as the “opposer” vs “me” and I always blame. Now I realize it’s I have to change “internally” so that I can reframe the situation. I can label things now, see what’s projection, what’s shame, etc. It’s empowering, and it’s scary. Totally Uranus in the 12th house. With Saturn, I want to be more stable, especially emotionally but with daily living as well (financial planning).
So, what’s the name going to be? Will it be technical and politically correct? Will you have a business card?
Get well soon!
WWJKD
Hey Jeff, do what you have to do. I enjoy this place no matter what your role in it is, or where it resides. It’s the only astrology blog/place that I do visit regularly anymore. My interest waxes and wanes, and has over the last 25 years, and you help me keep in touch. Thank you. Take care of yourself.
Hey Laura – I subscribed to your blog too because I’ve enjoyed your recent series here so much. I keep reading what you write and believe that we think very much alike sometimes. I think maybe I figured out why. I am also a 25 degree Piscean. March 15th here.
Thanks both of you for pointing out what is coming up for me too. I am also feeling “out of sorts” lately, with all sorts of crap happening. Crap that feels more like something Scorpio (I keep finding new relatives – and not 2nd cousins either – sisters, and the biggest surprise, a 2 year old granddaughter). Anyhow, I’ve been so confuzzled by it all that the movements of the planets has all but escaped me. Now it makes a bit more sense and now I can look at it with a sense of where to start looking.
Again, thanks for all you do Jeffrey, it’s appreciated – and you too Laura and everyone else that contributes.
@may, the name will be a surprise, but trust me, it will be fun.
@Valkyrie, you’re welcome, and thanks for being such a helpful presence here. I’ve learned alot from your comments.
@leslee, reading about these natal Saturn-Sun aspects drives home how much discipline is required to stay healthy. Gotta cut down on the sugar and get more sleep…
Jeff rules.
My Sun opposite Saturn happened two years ago, when I took my current day job. It was relentless, the demands on my time, the demands to produce workproduct, the insane expectations of my bosses. And in the end, no one appreciated my efforts (that theme being prevalent in my chart). When it was over, I took some serious dings emotionally and professionally that had nothing to do with how well I was performing. (For me, that Saturn squared my Mars in the twelfth house and I really got to find out about secret enemies.) One step, one day at a time was how I took things. When the firestorm was over, I realized that I had to change where I put my efforts and I got the gig at 451 Press, starting my career as an astrology blogger.
The whole thing was not about paring down my life, but standing up to it. Not backing down, not turning away. Accepting who I was, faults and all. Accepting what could and what could not be changed, because Saturn resists change after all. Now Saturn is opposite my moon, having me relive emotionally the effects of the Saturn opposite the Sun time. Some days I just get up and go do the things I have to do. It will pass. I am getting excited about some projects that I’ve put off, working on a couple books, picking up freelance jobs, still blogging nearly every day. It will pay off, because its what I want to do.
But Mr Sun in Pisces, Moon in Aquarius, you don’t need anyone to remind you to do what it is you want to do. My best advice: Schedule your down time. Take vitamins. One day at a time.
God Bless
Wonderful. I wholeheartedly support your transformation and self-care. Looking forward to seeing it.
I’VE BEEN GOING THROUGH IT TOO. I don’t know whats going on but I find myself in a rut and still trying to be positive and productive. Its an inner battle. I feel just sort of discontent and don’t know what to do about it. I do get the sense that I need to let go of something and just recently realized it could be my ex. I thought I let her go but I guess I really haven’t. It still hurts when I let it hurt. I’m a leo and have been enjoying my summer of solar eclipse joy! except for the past couple of weeks so its really bringing me down. And, Jeff, whatever you decide to do I really love your blogs and have missed them, I really hope you continue blogging. Even if its once a week or something simple. Good luck, man! And take good care of yourself.
Me? Saturn squaring natal Sun, Neptune squaring itself, and Pluto opposing my Jupiter. Oh, and my Saturn opposition.
I feel like Jeff Bridges in one of my favourite movies.. “Fearless”… laughing and shouting at God about “you want to kill me, but you CAN’T!!”
My Sun is at 0° Pisces. I had just one clear pass of the transit Saturn opposed Sun last year at around this time. That transit was coupled with a Saturn conjunct Pluto transit, too. The effect was all-encompassing, land-locking, and all about boundaries, shedding ego, growing pains.
As Pisces, we’re getting a sextile from Pluto, too, so it’s like after landing in the desert, we get a rare plan. Greetings and a soft little tap on the glass and a wave to your personal Aquarium, oh Pisces brother. Together we are strong.
thanks, Deirdre!