anyhow our relationship has been basically indestructible up until this last month. before this last month we were mutually infatuated and had this insane chemistry that strangers on the street would often comment on- no lie. we lived together for about half a year and worked great together. our sex life was and still is unbelievable. whats more is that we’ve always been able to talk.

this past month ive noticed weve been somewhat off balance. at the beginning of the relationship he was the more vocal one about his feelings, always straight with me about how much he cared and everything he’d do for me. i was less vocal and kept back a lot of my feelings- as i do with every relationship, keeping my cool. then our relationship flourished and i fell madly- emphasis on madly- in love with him. hes become noticibly less affectionate than he used to be (or maybe i just remembered it that way) and ive grown into this crazy jealous freak that i didnt know i had in me. i love him incredibly and ive just been so consumed with these unwarranted insecurities about him leaving me. i take these insecurities out on him where i lash out and say unnecessarily awful things. its just very unlike me to bare these feelings all the time when i used to keep them so neatly under wraps.

i have no idea if this has anything to do with my being an aquarius but i thought id leave this post in case anyone had some insight.

thx