Ok so I have to make this quick: First to anyone that say my previous posting about my contest, and voted, Thank you!!! I didnt come out as the “winner” but im always a “winner” in my mind!

Now on the nitty gritty:

So my scorp and I have been getting along rather well lately! He is back on the West Coast and I am going to be going out there for a visit very soon! He was super supportive during the radio contest, voting all hours of the night, listening via the internet, just really being there for me. Its almost as like going thru that experience with me made him “like me more”. Its as if, now when we talk about life and our careers he is open to talking about mine as well. I remember when I told him about the contest, 2 days later he was happy to report to me that he had landed a golden internship at a great label! He was all so proud to say that we were “both doin it big at the same time” in his words lol

So fast forward to yesterday, he hit me on iChat, we chatted for only abour 5 min before we both needed to get going. So we end our convo and I get dressed to leave, I go to his FB page to read his status and to my surprise I see that he has changed his profile picture.

Stay with me lol See, when we both lived there, we loved Malibu beach. Matter of fact, its the beach we went to after the explosion of emotions at our apartment that lead to our leaving Cali. Its our fave place.. It his fave beach, but we go there (u get the idea lol)

Now on Malibu beach there are these rocks called “Wishing Rocks”, and we were told about these rocks one day when all of our crew were having a chill on the beach day. This lovely trio of ladies chat us up and tell the ladies of our group that those rocks are made for love wishes and etc. So of course we wanted to see em…

Fast forward again, to months later, I wanted to surprise my scorp by takin him to the rocks, but in route he caught on and said he didnt want to go there blah blah blah so we didnt go

NOW, to the pic: The pic that is currently up, is a picture of my scorp climbing the wishing rocks, and in the sand in the background there is “I <3 U"! Ummmmm… doust my eyes deceive me??? Whats that say and where are you??? Who is that pic for? Why is it your profile pic? Should I click to like? Esp since I in my own crazy mind, still feel that "girl best friend" may be more… even though I havent seen much of her on his page lately.

I am trying not to overreact to that pic, but he doesnt do stuff like that. Like why have a pic with the words " I <3 U" anywhere on ya page?? He is way too "hard" for that! So that is why I am so taken aback… I see that the pic that is up is a cropped version as he still has the original uncropped one in the profile pic album… I can see where he cropped and he chose not to crop the "I <3 U" out… AHHHHHH!!! WTF?? This is quite a way to screw with my head mr!!!!

Am I trippin or what?!
lol

I did text him again today just saying he was on my mind and i hope he’s doing well and would like to hear how things are going. No response. but none expected. For now, i’ll just back off and let him come around when he’s ready. In my heart and instinct i know this is what he wants. To not have to respond because a response is expected but to respond when he has something to say and when NOTHING is expected. Again, we’re similar that way. I hate when someone expects me to do things, even if its the things i voluntarily do. The expectation seems like a restriction and takes away from the value and meaning of the action. For example, i love to cook and i often cook for him (and all the other people that come to my house). But the moment he says “i’m hungry. would you make me something for lunch?” I get defiant and am like “i am not your servant. make your own lunch.” But had he not asked i would have said, “can i make you something for lunch babe?” And then rattled off not one but three options of delicious gourmet meals. It’s the same with him. The moment i expect and action or response, even on the most subconscious level, he picks up on it and becomes harsh and short and threatening almost. As if to warn i’m crossing some invisible line. This is the root of our arguments. And the constant breakups is old. I feel at least, i’m not walking away anymore. I even say “can we figure this out and get past it. you know we’ve been here before.” But he seems to think “exactly we have, so i’m really ending it this time.” But so far, that hasnt happened. On either end.

I’ll just disappear for a while. I’m aqua after all, it’s my nature to float on and then return at will. I actually think this trait is what keeps the phoenix in him interested.

Ladies and Gentlemen,

I Only can suggest to give your lover a MULTIPLE SPACE. I know you will struggle but it will give you a new sense of life to love yourself unconditionally. Don’t focus to these scorpios that driving you insane otherwise it’s your loss and not these people.

As my ex scorpio man who always told me “WAIT AND CALM DOWN” it triggers my mind…I mean who is this F@cking guy told me to wait for him? There’s so many men in this world. I was needed an ultimatum answer not telling me WAIT and CALM DOWN.. I died a couple of months because I love him so much. But, I have to offer that love for myself before it leads to destruction. Scorpios doesn’t care what you feel. they are too cruel to their loveones. Telling all bad against you and it will break your neck and head. Reverse! because they loves you that much and they have all confusion in their hearts and minds.. you know why? because they don’t believe easily. it takes time to win their heart. let them have their own space and when they feel they loves you and miss you…I promise they will strike back and give you praises. they same my ex did last week…but hey scorpio male, I AM NOT INTERESTED ANYMORE. I’m over!

AriesmeetScorpio,

baby, I don’t need this man anymore. I give him an ultimatum. I forwarded the email to him consisted full of praises about me …because I believe when you do forwarded their email to them IT MAKES THEM SENSE THAT THEY’RE OUT OF YOUR LIFE AND IT WILL HURT THEM…if they truly loves their partner…they will chase and fight for their feelings no matter what the situation is…if they don’t come chasing…
baby…they don’t love you that much. Don’t be too sad when your dreams to enter their lives will never come true…just be thankful to GOD that your
Nightmares never do!

COUNTESS,

Lady, do you remember what you have told me before…we are woman.
Now, You are smart enough to study scorpios..but hard to apply.
I would love to let you know…JUST BE MYSTERIOUS. STOP CONTACTING HIM.BE QUIET. DON’T KEEP DOING THINGS THAT ISN’T WORKING. I PROMISE YOU…WHEN HE’S READY HE WILL THE FIRST ONE TO CONTACT YOU. JUST BE PATIENT. BE AMBITIOUS AND LOVE YOURSELF TO BOOST YOUR CONFIDENCE. SCORPIOS LOVES THAT..PUSH HIM A LITTLE BIT WITHOUT SAYING IT…JUST STOP YOUR CHASING. GIVE SPACE DEAR..

GOD BLESS.

scorpios are a bit like that. they create an illusion and sometimes people fall for it. a lot of the time people don’t. sounds like you are still inside the illusion. but that is just my opinion.

the funniest thing is that i have no idea when a scorpio loves someone or not and being one myself it makes things confusing. a lot of the time i just want to be entertained for a little while to bring me out of the boredom and loneliness of every day life. but for anything long lasting it is very difficult for a scorpio to create that because everything degenerates and then regenerates. as the cliche goes ‘the phoenix rises from the ashes’. i think that is why scorpios are the proud owners of many broken and obsolete relationships. i have my fair share of these.

it all comes down to whether you believe in the person or not. as soon as there is doubt it is probably time to walk away as a scorpio will not thank you for staying with them on lesser grounds.

I’m really worried i may have messed things up badly and my scorpio is truly done. As i posted a few weeks back, i got very beligerent and vicious (maybe even verbally abusive) to my scorpio. This is not the first time it’s happened either. It happens every few months where i just loose it on him. The reasons why are prolly insignificant. I’ve made my own personal decision to take drastic action for myself to learn how to control the aggressive nature i have becauseits not healthy and its not right. ive worked on this issue previously in life and have come a long way but its not nearly far enough. i intend to see it through and nip it in the bud once and for all and i’m confident i can within time. i’m trained at personal evolution and once i put my mind to something i will accomplish it, especially in terms of personal growth and enlightenment. I gave him a few weeks as he said not talk to him for awhile after i tried to appologize and say that i consider that i am at fault and do see his point (Despite the fact i dont think he sees mine or why i act so crazy). A few nights ago i sent him a text of a song lyric he loves that also describes remorse in a relationship for things one has done wrong to hurt the person they care for. in about 10 minutes i received a call from him, but it only rang once and then stopped. i believe it was an accident. then the following night i sent a text asking if he called me. he replied “who is this?” Now i know he said during our fight that he was deleting my phone number and wanted nothing to do with me, but i’ve changed phone numbers in the past couple months and have an unusual area code, so i think he would recognize it. i also know, that earlier in our relationship, when we would fight and i would tell him to hit the road, when he would text weeks later asking me to talk, i would do the same thing, ask “who is this?” silly and stupid i know, but it was because i wanted to impress on him that i had moved on. SO idk if he’s doing the same thing. So i simply replied it must have been a glitch in my phone and nevermind and sorry. so the following morning i asked via text did he really not know who it was or did he just not to want to text. he replied “i know who this now. i deleted your number.” so i replied “were you hoping delete would equal disappear?” i then followed with another text saying “i’m not trying to be sarcastic i just dont know if thats what you were implying.” No response. Until about 10 hours later at 7pm he sent a text saying, “so is there something you want?” i replied after midnight (since i was working) “just to see how you’re doing”. No response. Now maybe its wishful thinking but i assume since he asked so much later (he’s usually a quick responder) if i wanted something, that he’s not completely set on never talking to me. BEcause i know when he really doesnt want to talk or he’s still really upset, he simply won’t respond. I guess, what i’m needing feedback on, is i’m not sure how to proceed from here. That was a couple nights ago. I want to keep it light and simple and just ask how he’s doing but on the other hand i dont want to act to casual as if to brush whats happened under the rug. but i also know he doesnt like to hash things out if something intense happened. he just wants to move on from it. I dont know if he wants me to make an effort or if he wants me to back off and if its the later for how long or if forever. I do feel in my heart he hasn’t quite written me off for good but i do feel he’s quite fed up and since we’re across the country, i havent had the opportunity to bring some really good feelings into the picture much so i feel like right now for him, the bad stuff is really outweighing the good. i think if i could get the chance and with a little time and patience, i could remind him of why we are together and how important it is to both of us, but right now, i don’t even feel that psychic connection we used to have. i used to be able to think things and i could feel him getting my thoughts. alot of times he would contact me and discuss (unknowing of my earlier psychic activites to push thoughts into his head. only good ones!) the exact things i was thinking. But right now, every time i go to do it, i get this sense of him being like “get the hell away from me”.

Idk guys, what do you think?