“holds a mirror up to you you see what you have become,it is the most painful thing ever to see the monter you have become” – mirror, mirror on the wall… who’s the meanest of them all?… monsters have their role in fairy tales, ya know… lol

I’ll tell you what I tell my mom… you can’t worry about what you have become… you can’t worry about how you are perceived… abc123, how you are regarded is significant to you… but, to me, another’s edict about me, let’s just say that I know what Rhett Butler meant by “Frankly, my dear, I don’t give a damn”…

btw, I’m my own mirror… can you “survive to witness the victory of the echo over the voice”?

look, I learned a long time ago that if you try to fit someone else’s image of who you should be… you’re in trouble…

angels and demons are one and the same… I seem to recall that Lucifer fell from Heaven…

lastky, you can’t hurt me with brutal honesty, “the truth will set me free”… but, you might just earn my respect…

My Granny once said to me dont tell lies theyll make your eyes pop out I was very small only about 5 maybe 6 . I remember one day I had been playing in the garden with my friend we came in to sneak to sneak some milk and cookies.

Later on my Granny had what she would call afternoon tea with some friends,she went to look for some biscuts to go with the tea. When she couldnt find any she went outside to find me to ask if I could fetch some from the store for her. Well she found my friend and I in the tree house she was so mad as I wasnt allowed cookies without asking she asked me “have you eaten all my bloody biscuts Emma ?”

I just smiled and yes Gran they are lovely ,she smiled back and said “get off your bottom and get some from the store then “.

Later on that night I asked her why I wasnt in trouble (My Gran was a fearsome woman who could put the fear of christ up anybody !)

She said because you told the truth. My point is I am more lightly to be so brutaly honest with someone that it would get me in trouble. Chip you have more reason to fear my brutual honesty and temper than you do me cooking up some underhanded scheme.

Yes I have sun trine saturn in scorpio. I know the damage that could potentially cause I know all my friends secrets, yet I would never betray as they are my friends and have shown me great kindness. I remeber once going through a very bad time I felt like I was continually being f**ed over. I remeber once saying to foe ” aw did I make you cry all I did was tell you the truth ” I was causing major damage and burning everything around me with my so called honesty( it was spitefullness)

Chip have you ever had a moment like that when youve gone looking for blood then someone holds a mirror up to you you see what you have become,it is the most painful thing ever to see the monter you have become. From then on I decided never to be that monster in the mirror again my want for revenge had consumed me thanks to that scorp saturn. I realised then just because you have a way to hurt people does not mean you should use it. Now I see the value of letting someone burn themselves, stewing in their own mess.

I wanted to be honest with people for good reasons because I knew I wanted to be honest because I wanted my concious to be clean.

Its funny you should say I wrestle with the pisces in me. A leo I hold very dear to my heart said something simaliar.He once said I am only vurnerable and feminine in a rare moment he calls me silver as in quick silver.

Oh I know this has nothing to do with getting back at anyone but perhaps leo femme would be so kind as to help a gal out here as I know she writes on this blog a bit.

Leo femme if a Leo man wants me to be vurnerable and open would he respect that and not see it as weak (he says he wants a woman not “some lass that can drink any guy under the table and never wants to live in a proper home ” I want so much to say to him to remove my armour leaves me defencless and weak . He wants to protect me he loves me so much he said when we went out for a meal he wants to be with me properly( hes getting clucky )

I want him to be the mate that travels down the path of life with me. I want him to run along with me rather than give myself to him, yet I know how much he wants a family and a home. I dont want to lose a potetially good man, bottom of my boots love him as he loves me. Yet I dont want him desperate for something that I know he may never have with me. I know thats so selfish of me to say, but I am trying to honest, I think I have to let him go and tell him I will never be what he wants even though it means losing a really good thing it is better than all this arguing and him longing constantly for something I am honestly not sure I can give him ?

anyway sorry for the rambling leo femme would really apprciate your insight on this

chip

pleasure as always

My Granny once said to me dont tell lies theyll make your eyes pop out I was very small only about 5 maybe 6 . I remember one day I had been playing in the garden with my friend we came in to sneak to sneak some milk and cookies.

Later on my Granny had what she would call afternoon tea with some friends,she went to look for some biscuts to go with the tea. When she couldnt find any she went outside to find me to ask if I could fetch some from the store for her. Well she found my friend and I in the tree house she was so mad as I wasnt allowed cookies without asking she asked me “have you eaten all my bloody biscuts Emma ?”

I just smiled and yes Gran they are lovely ,she smiled back and said “get off your bottom and get some from the store then “.

Later on that night I asked her why I wasnt in trouble (My Gran was a fearsome woman who could put the fear of christ up anybody !)

She said because you told the truth. My point is I am more lightly to be so brutaly honest with someone that it would get me in trouble. Chip you have more reason to fear my brutual honesty and temper than you do me cooking up some underhanded scheme.

Yes I have sun trine saturn in scorpio. I know the damage that could potentially cause I know all my friends secrets, yet I would never betray as they are my friends and have shown me great kindness. I remeber once going through a very bad time I felt like I was continually being f**ed over. I remeber once saying to foe ” aw did I make you cry all I did was tell you the truth ” I was causing major damage and burning everything around me with my so called honesty( it was spitefullness)

Chip have you ever had a moment like that when youve gone looking for blood then someone holds a mirror up to you you see what you have become,it is the most painful thing ever to see the monter you have become. From then on I decided never to be that monster in the mirror again my want for revenge had consumed me thanks to that scorp saturn. I realised then just because you have a way to hurt people does not mean you should use it. Now I see the value of letting someone burn themselves, stewing in their own mess.

I wanted to be honest with people for good reasons because I knew I wanted to be honest because I wanted my concious to be clean.

Its funny you should say I wrestle with the pisces in me. A leo I hold very dear to my heart said something simaliar.He once said I am only vurnerable and feminine in a rare moment he calls me silver as in quick silver.

Oh I know this has nothing to do with getting back at anyone but perhaps leo femme would be so kind as to help a gal out here as I know she writes on this blog a bit.

Leo femme if a Leo man wants me to be vurnerable and open would he respect that and not see it as weak (he says he wants a woman not “some lass that can drink any guy under the table and never wants to live in a proper home ” I want so much to say to him to remove my armour leaves me defencless and weak . He wants to protect me he loves me so much he said when we went out for a meal he wants to be with me properly( hes getting clucky he wants kids and a home)

I love him so much he is the only person who seems to get under my skin. However I am so not sure about kids I want to be honest with him and tell him I need that sense of strength and to be vurnerable and emotional leaves me feeling weak.

I want him to be the mate that travels down the path of life with me. I want him to run along with me rather than give myself to him, yet I know how much he wants a family and a home. I dont want to lose a potetially good man, bottom of my boots love him as he loves me. Yet I dont want him desperate for something that I know he may never have with me. I know thats so selfish of me to say, but I am trying to honest, I think I have to let him go and tell him I will never be what he wants even though it means losing a really good thing it is better than all this arguing and him longing constantly for something I am honestly not sure I can give him ?

anyway sorry for the rambling leo femme would really apprciate your insight on this

chip

pleasure as always

“come across as a mixture of sag and aqua” – you do, and know that you are those signs… when you write, it’s clear that you wrestle with the Pisces in you…

“I dont fit the mould , I dont fit in.” – I’m not certain where this coming from… In many ways, I think that your mental outlook is beneficial, and what comes natural to you (joie de vivre, enthusiasim, a radically enterprising approach) is the quintessence of what society deems important… and you exercise tact when communicating… I would want you as my motivational speaker… not certain that I’d give you a $25,000 CC (something tells me it be maxed out, and you’d burn through my nest egg)…

look, you cashed in on a lottery ticket… given a choice, most would rather be Cal Ripken, Jr. than Pete Rose…

there are certain modifiers that you repeat… “slippery” is an example of a bad adjective for you… I would say capricious, maneuverable, darting… slippery connotates a negative… I do not see malevolence in you… even with Saturn in Scorpio aspecting Pisces…

and I may be underestimating you, but I would never fear your “Getting back at me”… you would struggle assuming a mean streak which is a prereq for delivering a reckoning…

Had my chart drawn for me more than once one with the wrong birth year that I didnt know about right away

My Mums friend had given my friend and Is date of Birth to an astrologer who rights for our local paper.

She had got the year mixed up had I been born a year later then my chart would have would have had capricorn in it instead of sagitarius. When she gave my mum the chart my mum noticed the year was wrong and hence some of the planets were wrong to.

She took it back with the correct birth yearand ,looked at chart and redid it for me with the correct year . She did it for me as an early christmas present.

I noticed second time round it fitted me a bit more I am no where near as serious as all that cap would paint lol!

That is why up untill december 10th last year when my chart first got done I thought I had capricorn in my chart.I have neptune , uranus and jupiter in the 10th house but no actual planets in earth never mind capricorn.

I guess those planets in the tenth house would lend itself to giving more discipline, it would tinge a few of my sag placements with a little more discipline

I am really only focused when adopting a cause or on the quest for knowledge. I have mentioned before my love of books.To me the worst thing someone can do to me is try to pin me down or try to get me to get me to waste time with emotions when you dont need to. (see my rather horrible rant on the astrology of kink pisces page):P

My aquarius placements are conjunct my ascendant not my sun. My ascendant is very very heavily ascepted.

My in aqua is sextile all of my sag placements ( jupiter is one of the most prominent planets in my chart)

Mars is only aspected to venus and uranus

I have mercury conjunct venus

I can come across as a mixture of sag and aqua rarely pisces due to the high fire and air count and partly because I hate showing my emotions.

My sun is squared by moon, jupiter,neptune and uranus.Only good angle to my sun is saturn trine.

My internal struggle is this do I accept that nothing can ever be defined logically all the time and sometimes thinks are not defined or do I choose to aspire to seek more knowledge to better my understanding of the world and to put that knowledge to a cause that would aid humantity.

I dont like not being able to say there is reason for something or not being able to define it.

I have to learn sometimes to stop seeking newer pastures and enjoy what is around me as it is with out working out why it is as it is

I am constantly asking why ?You can probably guess I was bookish as a youngster despite being rebellious.

Give me a cause of my own choosing I will focus and work till my hands are bloody because I believe in it so much,give me a cause that is not my own I will fight it untill my last breath.Dont tear me down for saying this I am trying to hit home what guides me and gives me structure.

The truth is freedom gives me structure, the freedom to focus on being myself and learning in my own way, developing my own sense of self I suppose.

The truth is nothing defines me that is not of my own choosing.

Yes chip I am unorthodox, I dont fit the mould , I dont fit in.

I dont want to fit in. The only burdens I carry and rules I follow are of my choosing. Or in some cases where I have no other choice but to follow the rules.

No I would rather be an outcast than a sheep following the crowd.

btw, I think it’s the folks at google trying to “Get back at me”… yes, there are conspiracies afoot…